ABYG dahil na-disappoint ako sa sinend ng bf ko re a budget meal wedding

Me (f29) and my bf (m30) are already having talks regarding settling down. Naantala lang because we’ve gone through a rough patch because of his own doing. I initiated a no contact with him for 2 months, and now, bini-build ulit namin ang relationship. Anyway, that’s for another story time. Last week, he sent a tiktok vid of a couple na nagkaroon ng budget-meal wedding. Actually, this was not the first time na nagse-send siya ng ganun. Ako ba yung gago kung I felt disappointed na, hindi niya kayang mag-provide or mag-share on his part for a decent wedding na hindi masyadong tight on budget. I have my own expectation for my wedding since once lang naman itong lilipas. Hindi naman yung super enggrande, pero yung mabubusog and mag-eenjoy lahat ng guests and expecially our families. I’m also the type to really save up and spend to my heart’s content for a celebration, especially for myself and for the important people in my life. Nakaramdam lang ako ng guilt na na-disappoint ako dahil gustong magtipid ng jowa ko, dahil oo nga, kailangang maghigpit ng sinturon in this economy.
For context, halos same lang kami ng salary. However, mas marami na akong investment and ipon since I’ve been earning for 10 years already, while him, nag-start siya maging stable, maybe 3-4 years ago. Hindi pa ako nag-open sa kanya about this dahil di ko rin ma-confront sa sarili ko na parang nagmumukha akong shallow when it comes to financial matters 😭

ABYG dahil mukha akong pera?