Nothing crazy I just feel like a loser

Idk whats wrong with me. Every sport and/or video game I play I suck at. I cheated my entirety of high school. I'm so much more boring compared to my friends. I don't have guts to mess around and do the things they do. My hobbies are so stupid, none of my friends like them. They think i'm weird because they saw I recorded myself on my TikTok drafts. Idk I feel like I don't fit in at all. They always hang out without me. I just wanna isolate myself. Every time I do thats too "different" they judge me. Yes, I do have 1 real friend that I can talk to, and I have a good family, but I just feel like dread. I have problems, some days I feel fine, others I feel so horrible. Work is exhausting, and I when I come back I feel so tired, I find everything super meaningless. Online friends don't work either, i've tried it before and it never goes right. At this rate i'll never find a partner. And I know I need to change my negative mindset but nothing ever works. I'm tired