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Hey everyone , I have a story just like everyone . I failed jee end up in Tier 69 college and very far from my family .

Right now everything seems fuckedup and I am suffering mental health issues and depression right now .

Growing up i was never away from my family and now I am very far from them just for a fucking college. 

Anyways I just came to this city and I had very bad experience , I used to cry for hours in the bathroom and feeling pity why I came here.

Growing up i didn't have much connection with my father like he used to go to work early and came late but still gave us time and watch tv with us .

After that he we shifted to a new city cause of some issues and my father was in the same city .

He used to visit us 1 time every month and I was  so selfish and careless that I never even called him when he was away , I only called him for money and whenever I need something .

But now that he got to know about my situation obviously my mamma told him , he now calls me everyday and just talks to me , man it makes me feel so good now I know that he also had a child in him he also had dreams that were overshadowed by the burden of responsibility , i now talk to him for 40-45 min everyday even more then my mumma, 

He always say that if just live your life , life is not a suffering it is worth living .

Whenever I told him that the job market is way too bad rn and by the time I will be graduating there is a chance that cs degree will be useless and he said " Tu karm kar , phal ki chinta mat kar " and also he said " Main abhi zinda hu tu pareshaan mat hona aur apni zindagi bohot acche se jiyo" , man these words made me cry and now I can say that I always misunderstood my father.

Man I am having tears writing it , but I don't have the courage to say this to my father .

" Papa I love you so much you are everything to me and I will make you proud one day 😭😭"

Blessing in disguise moment , I cried like a baby