intense impending doom and derealization

I haven’t posted on here in literally months, but im so desperate for some reassurance. Ive been dealing with dpdr for almost 5 years now used to be once or twice here and there and then it turned into everyday for months long. Ive been in dpdr since june of 2025. Ive very surprisingly been pretty okay mentally im terms of depression and honestly really kinds scarily been motivated and energetic (cleaning a lot, doing a lot of my work, just doing things that wouldve been hard for me)

and quite frankly its kind of scaring me. I dont feel “right” i feel like something is really wrong with ME and just with EVERYTHING. I dont know what to do or how to fix it i dont even know how to describe it i just feel WRONG. I just have this constant feeling of something bad happening and its freaking me out. I feel like im living im space or im living in an alternate reality. Im just scared. I really thought i was getting better than life just puts these tricks on me…🙁