22M looking for a long term friend to talk to often

No auto-censor on my side, I like yapping a lot. I’m into art, Linux, 3d modeling, gaming, books. I am a 100 tools in one, if you want to call it that.
I’m gonna be honest, I need real friends, but I don’t think there isn’t a better place for that but the internet (and specifically here? Great…).
To be honest maybe I’m not what some want, that’s kinda sad for me, but I wanna do my best and make someone happy. Or maybe try to…
I feel a little down to be honest, and there is a big hurt in my stomach I want to cure.
But maybe I’m too weird? Wish I wasn’t weird. I just– need someone who understands me. Sounds dumb but I barely make make friends because maybe I’m not too manly, or I just prefer talking to girls because they get me, I really don’t know.
I’m just yapping, aren’t I? Well, if my “tragic story” is convincing for you to talk to me, reach me out! We could talk and game and watch YouTube videos idk, just talk to me!