I'm happy I had an epizode last night

I'm happy I had an epizode last night

I've been smoking weed every day for years, and I didn't stop when I started prescription for depression 2 months ago.

Well yesterday, after taking my prescription medication for depression I also took prescribed medicine for anxiety, because my anxiety was through the roof all fucking day. As usual, didn't eat all day, since I have no appetite on my pills.

Last night I went to my friend's house to play some PlayStation and smoke some weed.

Well let me tell you, after that second joint i almost died. Shivers, throwing up, shaking uncontrollably, my legs my hands were trembling I had paranoid thoughts and chest pressure so bad I thought this is it.

I was cold and sweaty at the same time, and totally out of it to the point where I passed out on my firends couch.

So today, my anxiety is terrible, worse than yesterday, and that experience made me question all my life choices.

Which is good I guess, hopefully I will end this self destructive streak I'm on.