My 22nd birthday is almost here   
It’s been a year full of blessings, opportunities, and challenges. I’ve accomplished a lot of good things, and I have so many things to be grateful for. But I still feel unmotivated.  
I feel like my biggest problem in life is that I prioritize everyone and everything except myself. I don’t keep the promises I make to myself. I don’t do the things I know I should do and that would be good for me. I don’t know how to set boundaries with people.  
I also still don’t have a partner. And even though I’m not desperate to have one, sometimes I can’t help thinking about the fact that I still haven’t met anyone. And, in part, not meeting anyone has also been my fault because I’ve closed myself off precisely because I still feel like I haven’t kept my own promises to myself, or that I’m not 100% physically ready to meet someone. But I know that’s a complete lie.  
And yet, that’s what I ended up doing anyway.  
Being such an introverted and shy person also makes it difficult for me to meet people. I feel like I connect much better with people virtually. But I don’t know if I want a long-distance relationship. I don’t know if I’m willing to do that.  
And, in the end, I feel like even though this has been a blessed year, and I definitely have so many things to be grateful for, I can’t help feeling bad because I feel like I don’t change year after year, no matter how much I want to.  
I try, and then I give up. I close myself off because I feel like no one understands what I’m feeling.  
Anyway, here’s a picture of a delicious salchipapa I had ❤️

My birthday is almost here, but I’m feeling depressed