i am so fucking weird

i hate social anxiety i hate masking i feel like im scamming people of my real personality, 3 years into highschool and ive yet to make a friend who genuinely knows me for who i am
im so alone i hate my mind it never ever ever stops running it feels like my life is a performance i never feel real i always feel everyones eyes on me i hate being percieved i am my worst enemy and it doesnt stop i dont know what to do anymore im so weird
i feel like a loser i have such a great personality and everyone is missing out because i never show it
i have such high expectations for friends therefore never make any
im so alone