Finally try to Move On ?

I've liked a girl for 4 yrs, we were close with each other but abhi 1-2 Saal se due to few incidents we couldn't be together ( part of it was my fault, hers too maybe but more of mine ), we are in the same group and she liked the other guy in the same group, also due to all these 12th exams Im very different of how I was 2yr before(like now Im introverted, thoda less self esteem and all those kind of things) and now she is friendly with everyone but Idk what but, Im just overthinking but, I think its getting hard to be together, like everytime I think of her, I feel she only moves away

And most important we dont even talk now, and idk even know how to anymore,

even if we talk its just when all our group are together and she is kinda friendly person so I cant even take taking nicely as hint. And this makes talking to her even more hard, like I cant bring myself to talk to her properly, so obv after not talking to each other and me being introverted too idk is she even likes me anymore

Also MAIN THING everyone know who she was talking too except me, none tell me but I still know ( 90% correct guess).

I have become introverted too and lost all my energy in these past 1-2 yr. While the other guy has become more energetic

Idk maybe Im just overthinking and trying to blame but I seriously think its not working, like Im not working, so maybe I will try different path

I had a inner feeling tht there will be something between us but tht voice is very faint and I cant even trust that anymore.

So I will finally try to move on, 1-2 month se I had a feeling I would have a chance to get back but Khair, she's talking to someone ig.

Also as a last act of loving and letting go I will pretend she's talking/dating someone and try whatever I can while expecting nothing (mostly just me moving on and getting busy with clg).

And future me if it ever goes right, dont make the mistake you did last time

Just go for her.

I've prayed, will do my work and rest in gods plan ✌️