Welp the excitement last 20.2 weeks

Today marked the end of me being excited to be a dad and hello to the dread of being a dad.

Found out we are expecting a girl. After spending the entire time thinking and hoping for a boy. All of the ideas I had about raising a kid are gone. All of the happiness I had about being a father to a boy are gone. I am not excited, I have nothing but dread inside. Dreading the fact that my wife isn’t a girly girl, dreading the fact that I don’t get to just be a guy now that I have to soften myself. That my hobbies that I enjoy will never be anything that she likely, Statistically speaking that is.

I am a pile of shit for even having these thoughts. I can’t just be happy that everything looked normal and she seemed fine.