I cheated on my ex wife with her male cousin.

We were already in a rocky spot in our relationship and she was going behind my back and talking to other guys and flirting with them with or without me. Well we were at her cousins house one day and I was talking to him and as guys do we started talking about sex and he mentioned that his gf wasn’t giving him any head. I told him that was crazy that a guy like him couldn’t get any and then I said hell if I was her I’d be doing it non stop. He asked me if I wanted to do it and I was shocked and then he pulled it out and it was huge! Idk what came over me but I sucked him and swallowed and then went back down stairs like nothing happened. He tasted so good I didn’t want it to stop. It was so hot and I can’t stop thinking about him even now that we are divorced. I wonder if she knows.