Working up courage to go to the ER when not feeling sick enough

I have a lot anxiety revolving the hospital because of medical gaslighting and honestly at this point maybe even trauma regarding medical gaslighting but I think I may really need to go I’m malnourished but overweight so I’m anxious about that but I need fluids and I’m sick and when I wait to get seen when I’m sick it typically turns into pneumonia so I really need to go but i genuinely can’t bring myself to because I don’t feel sick enough or I feel like it’s not bad enough that it’s needed.