Grateful for the job offer, but deeply unhappy.

Hi, I’m a SWE with 6+ years of experience in it. My career path was in two companies. I was laid off from my the first one after several years, and I had to leave my second because they stopped paying us due to financials.

After 4 months of searching, I finally got an offer and will start soon. The stack involves new tech for me, but that’s fine. What worries me a little is that I’ll be the only tech person there. But I took it. Even though deep down I know it's not for me.

Don't get me wrong. I am genuinely grateful to have an offer in this tough market, but I already feel nothing. And now I wonder if I should have held out for a better role, but given the current market, turning down it is a not the best move.

So my issue is that although am grateful, I’m not happy. Honestly, I haven't been happy with my career for the last two years. I feel like I'm stuck doing something that isn't me and something I can no longer give my full energy to. Over the years, I’ve worked closely with PM work and realized I enjoy it more than coding, but I haven't been able to make an official pivot yet and am not the kind of person with character that's needed for PM. So, maybe this burnout.

These past 4 months off were my first real break after several hectic years. And it made me realize how much I forgot about myself. I’ve been financially independent and supporting my parents for nearly 8 years, so it feels like I’m stuck in a loop where I just work to cover responsibilities without building the life I actually want. The thought of stepping back into a 45 hours weekly in a high-pressure job makes me feel unhappy.

Part of me wants to take a year off, and maybe pursue a Master's degree abroad, explore new environments, and figure out who I am outside of work. But I am afraid of that, cz I sure have savings but in this hard times I need to be cautious. (And for hobbies, I have some, but work takes so much of my energy that I barely have anything left for them).

Did you get me? I’d really appreciate any honest advice or perspective. Thank you.