My autism life is difficult 😞

I'm Kimi, a 22-year-old African American autistic YouTuber from Georgia (she/they), and I'm single, bi/ace and non-binary who loves anime (Thriller, Post apocalyptic & Found family), plushies, music (Calm, R&B (90's-Early 2000's) & Anime songs/Ost), childhood movies, Games (Fnaf, Undertale, Deltarune), Gacha Club, and creating my own worlds like Creationverse and my hero academia oc to get people interested on my content. I can't really get a job at the moment because people out there might take advantage of me despite my autism and going to college is very expensive these days. But lately, I’ve been meeting people who've been jerks, or not interested in my gacha content. My past relationships ended for different reasons four times because of my childish behavior or my anger issues, including misunderstandings, being used, incompatible boundaries, or different life goals.