I need to share a secret

Hi everyone. I’m not sure whether I need advice. I think I mostly need to share a secret that none of my friends know about, hear what you think, and find out whether I’m the only person who feels this way.

I’m a 34-year-old man with a wife and children, but I’m secretly bisexual. So far, I’ve only had sex with three men, which feels like very little considering that I realized I was bisexual when I was 15. I just find it difficult to actually meet up with men.

During two of those encounters, I was the top. The third time, I gave a blowjob to a stranger I had met through a dating app. The longer I did it, the more I enjoyed it. That was three years ago, but I still think about it very often.

I have a home gym, and when I work out, I like wearing women’s workout clothes—leggings, a thong, and a tank top. I really enjoy training in women’s clothes. It motivates me a lot and makes me feel incredibly sexy.

Recently, I’ve developed a fetish for making my butt look feminine—like the “bubble butt” shape that is popular right now. I do glute exercises that are usually associated with women almost every day. At the end of my workout, when I look in the mirror and see how much fuller my butt looks from the pump, I get extremely turned on because I imagine that it belongs to a woman. A man once even told me that my butt looked sexier than a woman’s.

I’ve worn my wife’s leggings and thongs in front of her a few times, and she found it sexy. However, she doesn’t know that I’m attracted to men—or, more specifically, that I’m attracted to the idea of giving oral sex to men. I’m considering talking to her about it soon.

So, what do you think about all of this? I’m especially interested in hearing from women: Do you find men with great-looking butts attractive? What do you think about men wearing women’s clothes? Is that something you find appealing?

As for meeting men again, I would like to try it, but it’s very difficult for me to go through with it. Discretion is extremely important to me, and I would want the other person to take care of himself, both in terms of hygiene and fitness.