I’m now completely aware, reaction/action? Unknown what I should do. Still super processing this??

I found out the other night, someone I love dearly is conscious and subconscious racism. Also they hate me but honestly I don’t if the hate and racism are one in the same in this situation. I left out so much context and details. What can you give me based on my statement. It’s really hurting me in everyway and has been the past 4 or 5 months??????