It’s so scary

My biggest fear is that I will eventually snap and do something to it that I can’t undo because that’s how mentally fucked I am because of all this I can’t even trust myself anymore. I always have a constant fear of doing some sort of harm to herself because of all this shit it’s affected me so bad it’s horrific.

Shouldn’t even fathom the thought of doing anything, but I do because that’s how damn I am