I just want help and have no one

Trying to get ADHD meds so I stop self-medicating with medical marijauna and be able to get a better job. I’ve been off everything before and people just think I’m weird,so I function better with medication and marijauna has been that for awhile but it hinders my ability career wise.

I’m trying to get my childhood adhd med records from my dad

Here is what he says

“There was nothing wrong with you,you just didn’t get the gay vaccine(HPV)”.

He had a brain tumor during my childhood and doesn’t remember my adhd unless I bring it up and he says I was fine.

So trying not to be mean but the ignorance coming from that tbh is just pissing me off.

Then go ask my mother “I took you off it when you were with me”,ya and apparently you didn’t get any records either.

Just however hard I try,always something from my childhood still ruining my adulthood👍👍👍👍

Now gonna have to wait 2 months to get the money for an appointment. So stupid