seeing strangers pursue your dream is like punch on the gut

idk man im 19M and always dream of going into airforce and become a pilot and loved aviation in general.. ive cleared the written tests and in my final class 1 medicals i got to know im permanently unfit to become a pilot and pursue this career.. i felt very bad its been a year since that day and my Instagram is as usual filled with aviation content overall and i opened stories of one of my batchmates from middle school .. it was about him passing all exams medicals and finally going into flight training as cadet pilot in a regional airline... then there's an youtube teacher of mine whome i used to watch videos of her teaching biology her younger brother is has also joined the same cadet pilot program and yeah same pic as my friends

smiling dressed in suit neat and clean like a pilot posing with company LOI and logbook in hand while parents in side

man i broke down i closed my phone and like started to cry bro

ik most of people will say move on and try putting that energy into something else .. say less im doing everything gym studies other hobbies like learning to play guitar or even running but man while scrolling i saw this and i broke down..

i cant share this to my friends because they will surely say good things to me on face but be happy behind the back and my family already said to moveon.

any other suggestion how do i make myself forget this thing (i dont drink smoke so pls dont say that)