today 24 hours ago it was my birthday 🥲

i woke up a bit late..
grab.. my phone .. swipe to unlock
draw pattern.. *unlocked*

slide the notification..
gotten a few emails wishing happy birthday from various marketing/company..

gotten a few birthday wishes on facebook..
gotten a few birthday wishes on whatsapp..
most of it are in a whatsapp group..
only one was DM .. it was from a nephew.. 🥲

not complaining.. just accepting.
i was not happy..
i was not able to eat the whole day.
finally was able to eat some rice with ikan kering at 11:03pm .. just a few hours ago.

no money, no relationship, no friend, constant anxieties.
i wish i have a friend .. 🥹
😔