I broke up with my boyfriend about a month ago after almost 3 years together. Nothing huge happened, no cheating or crazy fight. I just felt like I had been forcing something that wasn't working anymore and just I ended it. At first I really felt relieved which made me think I made the right decision. But the last week has been completely different. I was scrolling my phone the other night and after i just decided to look for an old picture and ended up finding a video of us from last summer. It wasn't even anything special, just him messing around while we were making dinner. I've watched it probably 20 times since then. Now I'm questioning everything. I know there were reasons I ended it, but somehow those reasons feel way smaller now that he's gone. Meanwhile I was the one who broke his heart, so reaching out because I'm lonely feels incredibly unfair to him. I dont really know what to man, i think i really love him but i just cant text him and i feel sooo stupid for letting him go.