Evil play through is really hard:(

I don’t mean it’s challenging, it’s a struggle to be mean! My wife and I are doing our first evil play through and we’re having fun but it’s hard for both of us. I betrayed the tieflings at the grove and felt so bad about it. My wife was constantly saying “this feels icky”. Obviously it’s just a game but it’s tough when you know the characters and what happens to them later in the story. I think we’re going to see it to the end but apparently we just aren’t evil!