entha ponna paathalum life partner ah varuvangala nu thonuthu prands ithu enna viyathiyaa?

I'm 19M, perusa ponnunga kitta pesnathu illa, aana love of my life ah thedi kandupidikanum ellaramaathiriyum enakkum aasa thaan.

naa 7th varaikum coed school la padichen apa konja female frienda irunthanga aprm oru so called coed school la sethanga athuku aprm zero female interaction ayduchu.... instalayum yartayachu peslaam nu try pannen ana onum velaiku agala...

naa clg sera varaikum entha ponnu kittayum ozhunga pesnathu kedayathu

padathula vara maari clg pona odane oru ponnu pinnadi suthurom correct panrom nu vanthen... inga vanthu rendu moonu ponnunga pinnadi suthuna aprm thaan therinjuchu love na just looks ah vechi panrathu mattum ila nu... sari ellarum nammala avoid panraangale disturb panna venam nu suthitu iruntha apa enaku oru female friend kedacha..

avaluku oru paiyan mela feelings avana pathi daily enta share pantu irupa... ava enaku frnd aana apa avalukum antha paiyanukum sanda vera... avanga rendu perum oru moonu maasamaa pesala... sari nu naanum pesitu irunthen...

oru naal avale ena sapda vella koopta... entha ponnum ithuvaraikum enna kooptathu kedayathu vella ithaan first time enakku☺️... naanum ponen sapda...

aprm inoru naal clg la promo shoot panna apa avalaave vanthu selfie edu nu sonna... idhuvum first time thaan enaku....

sari nammala vella koopdurale nu naanum vella sapda koopten avalum vantha... naa kooptu oru ponnu varathu idhuvum first time thaan

ipdiye poitu irunchu, oru naal thideernu call panni azhuva aramichita, enaku bayam ayduchu yen na idhuvum first time enaku, naa takkunu avala samathana paduthi ava roommate ku call panni avala pathuka sonnen

enaku iruntha bayathula next day antha paiyan ta solliten azhuthuta nu.... athu konjam prachanai aagi aprm avanga nalla pesa start pantaanga... enaku oru nimmathi athula😌

athuku aprm entha ponnayum paakala naa ivalta mattum pesitu irupen epayume.... avalum yap pante irupa bathilku naanum yap pante irupen...

ipdi poitu iruntha apa oru naal en kanavula vanta ava.... idk how should I react to that... It felt like I started having feelings for her...

enaku epdi react panrathune therla... avaltayum solratha venama nu yoschite irunthen....

ivale maariye inum rendu per enta pesitu iruntha avanga boyfriends pathi aana avanga mela laa enaku feelings varala..

ithuku aprm thaan naa, ava, antha paiyan moonu perum oru event ku volunteer panna ponom, athuku aprm 2 weeks ava enta sariyave pesala... naanum pesu pesu nu kenjunen onum nadakala aprm block panten avala

adutha naal ava enta keta en mela feelings iruka nu..... naa noo soltu aprm konja neram kazhichu yes sonnen

Athuku aprm things were never the same.... feelings ila nu prove panna try pannen... feelings iruku nu sonnen... ila nu sonnen iruku nu sonnen...

aprm avale oru idea kudutha vera ponna paaru nu athuvum set agala... ithuku naduvula vera dude padatha paathu tholachuten😓

aprm konja naal pesnom ennoda moodswings la oru naal avalta poi pesatha enta nu solliten aprm konja naal pesala... aprm naane poi pesnen... aprm thirumba pesatha nu sonnen pesu nu sonnen ipdiye mari mari pochu.... naa enna sonnaalum athuku ava ok thaan sonna..

ipdiye poi ennoda feelings system break ayduchu, ethu enna feeling ne theriyama pochu, yarmela feelings iruku nu therla, yartayum pesavum ila, entha ponna paathalum ivanga nammaluku life partner ah vanthu nammala sari panvaangala nu yosika aramichiten but intha ponnu ta kedacha feeling yaartayume varala iniku varaikum enaku

idhu velaiku aagathu nu oru naal unta thaniya pesanum nu koopten vella sapda ponom... enaku enna feel aagutho ellathayum sonnen naa avalta... ava porumaiya handle panna enna... feel pannatha ithu normal thaan normal ah iru nu sonna... Can't we be just friends like those good old days nu ketan... una poruthu thaan athu iruku nu sonna... naanum apdiye irupom nu soltu pesitu oru walk ponom... nalla irunchu aniki...

ipa enna prachana naa enaku avala romba pudikummmmmm🥰🥰

enaku enna panrathu ne therla... i try my best to not have feelings for her but I can't...

my life is like this yap post.... anybody please help mee

btw some people call me a feminist and I have a younger sister...