Schizotypal/mental ward / jail

People don't realise when I tried to hang myself because I couldn't speak out about my schizophrenia and Psychosis and I couldn't get any support unless I went publicly mental and expressed myself as such, and when that happened everyone took the piss out of me... But I was mute for months and nobody even cared really, and then when my psychosis came out and then I was trying to talk to people and all my community ghosted me. And it's a bad trigger when people don't reply or leave me hanging.. especially aquarius's but that's just there way of dealing with things but being left hanging is a bad ptsd trigger and I've been thru alot and find it's rude AF that the people I thought cared didn't and would rather laugh at me... Hence my gf troubles currently.. would rather bully me for having suicidal mental health issues....