Told my mother that she hasn’t cared about my recovery - been ghosted for that

I have a chronic illness and little to no help whatsoever. Got angry and wrote that for years my mother didn’t care to ask me how it’s going with doctors or help me getting the right help. But she brings the food (for my money) because I’m often bed bound and then she’d abuse me emotionally. I always feel very bad and lonely after any communication with her. And still because I don’t have anyone else to call to - I’d call her maybe later idk, feels exhausting honestly. I had my time I didn’t spoke to her and I have a need to call someone and talk. But I can also say it feels easier not talking to her, because I feel not seen/heard with her anyway and so many efforts I need to put in order to explain things to her after each communication. She’s ignored my whole life that I’m neurodivergent and have different needs but it’s always been about her needs.