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For some context me (19f) and my boyfriend (22 m) have been together for a few months now, I love him a lot but over the time a few things about him started to bother me and im starting to doubt if I still want to have a relationship with him.

Two times already he told me he was ready to break up with me because I disrespected him and that i was "lucky" he still gave me chances : the first time because I didn't text him for 1 and a half day (I completely understood, I wasn't feeling great because a a fight with my mom and wasn't in the mood to talk but I should've told him) and another time because of a joke that he took badly. 

But even tho he said that I disrespected him for that, he did a few things that really bothered me and he didn't seemed to really care when I told him (he once told me that he had an ex sex friend  that he was still talking too but had to stop meeting because he knew that if they met they could stop themselves and that he wasn't satisfied with me. He also, when I had a really big scare as I had to walk home in the dark with no phone after a fight with my mom, that left me stranded told me that it wasn't that bad because I ended fine.

Since then I feel like I'm walking on eggshells because I dont want to loose him (i already had to cut contact with my mom family i dont want to loose more people) but at the same time im so tired of being stressed out about this. I hate our sex life he doesn't really care about my need...

Im so lost, I love him but this is really growing into me being distant to him...

(Dinner is leftovers chicken with pasta)

I dont know if i want to stay with my boyfriend anymore...