I gotta stop posting on here , it’s so stupid that im even posting this. I am such a weak and pathetic person

Why do I post on here??

I’ve been humming the song drag path by twenty one pilots when I post, the last couple posts only. that song slightly bothers me because he rhymes “surface” with “surface” and says “adversar” instead of “adversary”. But I feel like my posts are my drag path, a visible trail of me staggering though this episode, the one that will probably be my last.

I gotta shut the fuck up. Get a fucking journal. Deal with my emotions with no one except by own brain. I so rarely have anything to say that’s worth saying.

Why am I posting this? Because i always feel like my suffering must be seen. Why?? What gives me the right over people with much harder shit they’re going through. Why do I feel so special. Why am I so needy for others to recognize the pain. I gotta shut the fuck up. So stupid that im posting this.