Was this possibly grooming?

TW for CSA

So I love my dad but he said stuff in the past that made me uncomfortable. I am not calling him a pedophile because he is against that but he would say stuff knowing I had severe CSA trauma.

When I was 8 he told me about the Epstein case in graphic detail and it scared me and made me paranoid. When I was 9 or 10 he told me about the concept of pedophilla and said on quote “some men want to have sex with girls your age, don’t tell anyone I said that” or something like that. He also keeps calling “good girl” and “baby” after I said it made me uncomfortable (I am 17), when I was 16 he said “just don’t watch porn, unless it’s Japanese porn then that’s fine” and he would keep trauma dumping on me and would threaten suicide before when I was 16 in graphic detail.