Fuckk my lifee

I'm mad because I told my grandma to not let her out multiple times and he still haven't came back and it's been a fucking day and I'm getting worried and I feel like shit and what feels shitty is it doesn't feel better I feel alone and I miss the guy I like who doesn't even fucking care about me with my grandpa has stage 3 cancer my life isn't awful so I shouldn't complain but I'm tired of all of this shit I just want everything to be good but it isn't.