Endless cycle trying to hold on

For the past 3 months I’ve been on and off on SR , the longest I’ve gone is maybe 6 days . Usually after a failed streak the overwhelming feeling of lust takes over and I either release for the next week or 3-4 days before my mind gets back to normal I would say ? Then I’ll try again to stop , or if I give in , the next day I’m thinking about going to see a sex worker or just releasing until it has “ gotten out my system “ yesterday I messed up at solid 7 day streak , only released once but that one time felt like a piece of my soul got torn away and I feel so terrible right now . Logic dictates I just try again with today being day 1 but the lustfulness in my mind in my flesh is screaming at me to go release a couple more times before attempting to start another streak , has anyone ever had this problem before ? Has anyone had any solutions? I know what logic dictates but my own emotions and lustfulness is yelling at me to give in more and I’m just so tired of this back and forth all the time , I don’t want to fail anymore I want to give this up forever but I don’t know why I’m so weak when it really counts . I need help .