I want to stay in the hospital

I think I'm in the absolute minority with this but I wish I could stay a bit longer in the hospital.

Struggling day to day with chores and with work while being in pain is SO exhausting. I'm also so hard on myself when I can't do stuff.

The last couple of months I couldn't even work properly so I asked to work half of my normal hours. It makes me so anxious to think about my future and how I can manage to work again.

Here I can just lie in bed all day and that's it. No expectations, no struggles.

This year I had no vacation until now because I can't travel due to my pain. Some weekend trips with friends were actually exhausting for me because I was constantly in pain.

Honestly staying in the hospital gives me such a peace of mind. It's probably the best vacation I'll have this year.

They are currently figuring out when I can get my surgery. I hope soon and I can stay.