Trying to escape

I’ve become an online influencer. I’ve turned less trusting of my family and close friends, some of which I have found to be willing to use my own trauma against me. I’ve always been a very open person and I hate who I’m becoming. My family constantly watches my posts, I know expecting something probably. I’m having every mistake I make recorded forever online. I’ve seen how fake so many of my friends are. The worst part is nobody cares. Nobody does. Even if someone in this comment section says so, nobody wants to hear my issues all day. I want revenge for all the betrayal, I want to be free from even that desire… I want to continue to create though…. I am skilled in many different disciplines. Any advice? I don’t trust anything anymore. I’m so tired. I hate all of this. Nobody cares. My life feels like a prison I’ve lost everyone everybody has this resentment towards me