19M confused about sexuality

So see I m a straight guy i don't wana be gay or bisexual i don't have feelings for guys 💯 straight to the fact .....but today I tried something new with myself as i was bored i fingered my self alr ik it's weird....but I tried anyways I liked a lil bit....not entirely......I don't wana be with guys i disgust them .....If I was a girl i would be a lesbian tbh ..... anyways is there any way to to flush thing thing out like why tf do I like geting it from behind .....😭😭i don't wana be gayyyyy 💔🥀just turn me back to normal .....I wana be the dominant one