Coming up on my birthday

My birthday is coming up it looks like I'm going to spend it alone again this time of year is always tough I miss my soulmate the most around now she unfortunately passed 6 years ago I have spent every birthday alone sense and next year I'll officially been without her longer than I knew her I'm not ready for that I want to turn back time and get just one more day with her I'd do anything for that but sadly I will never be able to she passed away 2 weeks before my birthday we were gonna get drinks I keep hoping each year someone will come by and ease this pain help me remember how to be happy again but I don't see that happening ever