I’m giving up

I can’t keep living like this. I’m so depressed and consumed with regret. I’ve lost my job because I can’t even pull myself out of bed. I haven’t been truly happy in so long. Maybe I could’ve been but now it’s too late for me. God doesn’t hear my prayers. I wish I would’ve been better, that I hadn’t made so many mistakes. I ruined everything just like always. I’m going to end it soon. I hope God will still have mercy on me, but I doubt it