EXTREME Scene, TW

PLEASE do not crucify me for this. I've been getting shredded for this for like twelve hours. I want what I want and you know what? I'm not sorry. BUT, from what people are telling me, it's too dangerous to do. Please be nice to me 😭 just tell me if I'm being too unrealistic but I feel like people do extreme shit all the time, why can't I?

So anyway, I want my new girlfriend to fuck me with a loaded gun. I know I know. But can I???? Should I?? It was entirely my idea and she said yes. Sick! And the WHOLE reason it's hot is because there's a chance I might die. It absolutely will not work if the gun isn't loaded. And honestly for me as a person? It's legit a fitting way for me to go out. I don't see what the big fucking deal is and neither does my girlfriend, it's not like she's gonna pull the trigger, but it's hot that she might. And all my survivors will have an AWESOME STORY.

For real though, is there any fucking way I can do this? I want it SO bad. So what say you? Have the hottest night of my life and maybe die? Or double my borderline and bipolar dosages?