Kissed best friend's brother

I [30F] am shocked that I sat in my parents' driveway and sucked the face of my best friend's brother [30M]. He leaned over for his dog tags and I could have sworn I saw him smirk. I mashed my lips on his, and then he if I asked if I was sure and returned the gesture, I couldn't stop. 2 years of only thinking of the previous abusive relationship I had with my ex-boyfriend and yet here was Brad, inexpertly sucking my lip and kissing me and it was nice and fun. And then for a long minute we held each other. And then he sucked on my earlobe and held my hand and I started moaning like I'd reached orgasm. It felt so good.

We didn't even have sex. It happened fully clothed. Hopefully my friend doesn't kill me. 🫠💀😅