just tell me im not cooked please but be honest

hi im on my last year of medical school and my uni is shit no good teachers no practices old questions as tests and this is a perfecct opportunity for me to not do shi. i suspect that i might have adhd or simply ive a very cooked brain from brain rot but yeah i just memorized questions and passed all this years while mentally suffering that i cannot do anything and being overwhelmed by basic tasks

ive been like this since ik myself. my teacher told me she is smart but she doesnt have gluteus maximus to sit down.

and yeah all my exams piled up after i took my sweet time to decide what i want. i wanna pass the exam here for cash n prepare for plab. i feel like med res exam is easy in my country but im a failure so i think i cannot get in to the specialties that i really want. i managed to procrastinate my first step of the exam so ive 2 exams in one year plus diploma and semester exams i am absolutely cooked beyond repair imo. i didnt have money and a chance to go to a psychiatrist or drop out bc i cant do it. my parents paid the money for my uni. i feel ashamed but i feel like i am paralyzed. im extremely stressed and anxious the worst thing is our exams are one time a year so one year goes to trash. pls tell me if everything is gonna be okay if i pass this ill go to a psychiatrist to get help w my money so i can be a proper doc i think i also have depresssion tbh