I’m pregnant and considering abortion. I’m scared and could really use advice from people who’ve been through it.

I am currently pregnant, and I’m considering having an abortion. The situation is very complicated. The father is someone who is already married. Our relationship has been complicated, and when I found out I was pregnant, he told me that he thinks I should have an abortion, although he also said that the final decision is mine.
I know that ultimately I have to make this decision for myself.

The hardest part is I’m scared of raising a child without reliable support from the father. I’m scared financially. I’m scared of how much my life would change. And I’m scared that I might end up carrying all of this responsibility alone.

At the same time, the thought of ending the pregnancy makes me feel an enormous amount of grief and guilt.

I don’t want to make this decision because other people tell me what I should do. The people judging me won’t be the ones raising the child, paying for everything, waking up every night, or dealing with the consequences. But that doesn’t make the decision emotionally easy.

I think I’ve decided that abortion is the choice I need to make, but emotionally, I’m still struggling to accept it.

For those who have had an abortion:
What was the emotional recovery like afterward?
Did you experience grief, guilt, relief, sadness, or a combination of all of them?

How did you cope with seeing pregnancy-related things afterward like babies, pregnant women, ultrasounds, due dates, or other reminders?

Did you ever question your decision afterward, even if you knew at the time that it was the decision you needed to make?

And practically, what helped you recover after the abortion? Things you wish someone had told you beforehand would also be really appreciated. I’m not looking for judgment or a debate about whether abortion is right or wrong. I’m just looking for people who have actually been through it and can tell me honestly what helped them get through the days and weeks afterward.