I wish someone had caught me sending nudes over the internet when I was a teenager

I was so alone and felt my only value was being a sex object, it makes me so sad. I don't even know where it came from, but I've always seen myself like that, like a sex object, ever since I can remember.

I just wish my parents had noticed and done something to show they cared about their daughter talking to strangers on the internet. I even confessed it a couple years ago but the concern they showed then didn't fix how much I needed someone to care about me throughout my childhood and adolescence.

I can't even imagine what they would've done. I can't even come up with a fantasy about it, that's how far off reality I see a serious conversation with my family when I was young.

I feel so bad for my younger self and I can't let go of how untreated that trauma still is, which I know is now my responsibility but still.