Banned from ttttrans, banned from 4t4, banned from countttt, parasocial loser chud thoughts

I mean I guess I get it. Maybe. Maybe I just seem like a brigading psyop cisoid. Sometimes I contrarian post. Unfortunately I’m faketrans. It didn’t fix me. I don’t know.

I wish all the subs stayed small. I mistakenly thought being active made people like me or recognize me and made us sort of friends. But it’s only become clearer over time nobody gives a shit or will ever remember me.

Everyone else makes friends. Goes on Discord. Knows real life information about each other. I just lurked. Recognized usernames or profile pictures. Sometimes commented something genuine if I had the courage to try and talk to people. But of course they don’t know me.

I don’t know what’s wrong with me. Here, 4chan, Discord, anywhere, I’m just a boring, forgettable person. Even when people actively dislike me, they’ll barely remember it after a month of me being gone.

I know it’s stupid but I thought I could force myself into the “microcelebrity” thing. I guess not. Posting about my shitty life, agamp posting, horny repressing misogynist man posting, arguing about random shit. None of it worked.

I don’t know what the point of this is. I don’t think it’s gonna make me feel better. I don’t think it’s going to do anything for anyone else. I’ll probably just be banned again. Sorry I couldn’t do a better job. Sorry I just can’t seem to do this right. Even when it’s all I have.