Oversharing

I’m 100 days in and I go to the same meeting every day. There’s a reading and then a lead and then we break out into groups to share. There are no timers and people are really good with listening. I try to keep my shares on the short side though just to not be annoying.

Sometimes for whatever reason I just word vomit a ton of personal info in my share and then regret it. I don’t know why I do this. I guess the same impulsive sickness that makes me an alcoholic makes me do this. It doesn’t help. I feel more vulnerable and sick after sharing, not less.

I am really having a hard time in general. I have a sponsor who is great but I kind of wish I had gone to rehab first because I feel like I need more than AA can give. I don’t want to feel like a needy, annoying basket case but I do. I imagine people judging me for my bad choices and self pity. I am judging me.