I guess I just have to accept being alone?

28F, straight, severe CPTSD that is taking an extreeeeeeeeeemely long time and ton of work to even marginally begin chipping away at. I have not had sex in months, and every time I did have sex in the entire year before that, I would have severe PTSD responses, resulting in throwing up, fainting, trembling, panicking, etc.

I don’t think I’ll ever be able to date or even have sex again honestly. but I don’t want to be alone. I want to have a partner to share life with, but I dont think it’s possible for me. I just feel like I’m missing out on the best part of life.