I just realized I look the exact same

I’m just so down now. I’ve been trying to manifest a completely different appearance, I even made my own subliminal for it and I still look the same. I took my glasses off and looked in the mirror and was so dissapointed in my ugly, mishapen face. I dont even know anymore, I genuinely thought my appearance improved, even by just a little bit but it is still ugly. I still havea big nose, ugly set of eyes, long face…the list just goes on. I’m tired. Im tired of living with my face at this point and I dont know what to do. I know its partially my fault because i keep checking but i genuinely would be so happy if i woke up tommorow looking completley different.