I wish I could go back to when I didn’t know gambling existed

My ex and I got into gambling because of our family backgrounds, where it felt normal and acceptable.
I was clean for 4 months, then I relapsed. Now my savings are gone and I have only ₱1,000 left until payday.

I’m honestly so angry at myself. Please give me the harsh reality check I need. I know I fucked up, and I need to wake up.

If anyone can recommend a therapist/counselor for gambling addiction in the Philippines, please let me know. I don’t really have anyone else I can open up to about this.