[M4F] Prim and proper girl with a crippling rapekink can't help but ruin her life

Kara considered herself a good person. In between attending classes at college and her working as a TA, she was frequently seen volunteering at local shelters and tutoring underprivileged youths in the neighborhood. To her friends Kara was reliable, always present and always willing to lend a hand if you were in need or lend an ear if you were in distress. To acquaintances Kara was kind to a fault. Her friends had taken to stepping in and telling various clubs and orgs to stop asking her for assistance whenever they were short a hand because they knew Kara would never say no. To strangers, she was an angel. All the unhoused people living near campus knew her by name due to her work at the shelter and her donations of food or money.

But deep down, Kara was distinctly aware that she wasn't a good person. After all, no good person would fantasize about rape this much. Everywhere she went, she was careful to never let slip her real thoughts to anyone. After all, who knows what her guy friends would do if they knew that she was touching herself to the thought of one of them pulling her into a private room at a party and fucking her senseless. And it would be horrible if she were her sketchy professor knew she was masturbating to the thought of being blackmailed by him and turned into his freeuse toy. And the homeless men she helped? There would be no doubt they would take advantage of her and drag her back to their encampment if they knew how many times she came every night to the thought of being kidnapped by them. It could be days before anyone noticed she was missing and longer still to find her being used as a sex relief doll by these men.

Worse still, her thoughts didn't stop there. Ever since her friend Lexi had confided in her that she was sexually assaulted by her boyfriend, Kara had been having new fantasies. Ones where she wasn't the victim, but a co-conspirator. A perpetrator. Her arms weren't being held down by a cruel man, she was the one holding down someone else's arms. Rather than being overpowered, she was helping lure in some other helpless girl to a distant location where she will be violated over and over again while Kara watches. These thoughts flew through Kara's mind as she hugged her sobbing friend and consoled her after her dark confession. That night, Lexi left Kara's apartment with happy she was able to share her trauma with a trusted friend. Little did she know that seconds after the front door had locked, Kara was furiously masturbating to that trauma. Her lascivious daydreams escalated as her fantasies shifted from prey to predator. Now she was observing and ogling all the girls on the street. Noting their weaknesses and just how defenseless they were around her. It would be so easy to isolate them... but it's not like a girl like her would know any rapists anyway. And she would never do such a thing even if the opportunity presented itself to her. After all, she's a good person... right?

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Hi, today I'm looking to do an RP of a pretty common prompt with a voyeuristic twist. I'd like to roleplay a woman whose life is irrevocably changed after she gives into her desires after meeting a rapist. Maybe she rapebaits the wrong guy and finally gets what's coming to her. Maybe that professor does blackmail her and his demands escalate after he sees just how depraved she really is. Or maybe a coarse homeless man she meets tells her he just got out of prison for sexual assault and she tries to set up someone else to get raped by him, with or without his knowledge. These are just a few directions we can take this but feel free to suggest your own. I'd love to talk details and adjust the prompt to fit both our needs.

Kinks: dirty talk, non/dub-con, FFM, maledom, cosplay/outfit control, cock and ball worship, cuckquean, reluctant sex, size difference, moral degradation, lesbian conversion

Limits: toilet stuff, body modification, raceplay, and gore