Just struggling with my faith with Jesus

I have been struggling with my faith with Jesus. It’s been a tough year financially. I lost my Job and my home and soon my 3/4 acre lot. I’ve been applying to one job after another, but no luck. I will have an interview here and there, but no luck. Somedays I am frustrated with Jesus and others days I feel like I don’t deserve this. I realize that I do deserve this. I failed God, Jesus, and the Holy Sprit. I failed and I don’t know what to do.