I cant do aything anymore

This is embarrassing tbh but I just want to let it all out because no one is gonna read this but im just so lonely right now ever since my friend group sort of fell apart. I only talk to 1 person and I just feel so lonely now. Its so hard to make friends even online for me, why am I always so alone,, I can't even draw anymore and everytime I look back at my old art I hate it so much. And now I can't even focus at school anymore and I just hate all of this. I'm so fucking lonely that I can't even make new friends or be the "forgettable one" I hate it so much oml I hate venting online but its true I'll probably delete this or whateverr