Apology in advance

I'd like to apologize in advance for all the shitty chances I have given I'd like to apologize in advance for the Al the hurt built up over the years For the gunk beneath my eyes after I cry for no reason I'd like to apologize in advance for the way I'll test you over and over I'd like to apologize in advance for how I ask for care and understanding more than I may give it I'd like to apologize in advance for everything I'll remember The good, the bad, the innocuous, every part of you I will document until it seeps within my skin I'd like to apologize in advance if you didn't want the part of my heart I've carved out for you And I'm sorry for my insistence, and the distance, and the brokenness within me, I'm sorry I'm so small and I'm sorry I'm so big, I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry. Sorry in advance, I love you.