Toxic parents ( or family)

Hi, I’m in my early twenties and well I have a toxic family and very toxic parents and I dont know how to deal with this. To make things clear both my parents are providing for us, they really did their best in our education lifestyle extra… there is a good side of them, BUT, each one of them has this really bad dark evil side that traumatized us like they are responsible of 99% of my trauma that affected and still is affecting me hugely in my mental health and I see it’s effect on my physical one. I feel so tired and not enthusiastic about life, I see my friends talking passionately about life, dreams, future, and there is me that can’t help but wish to experience that feeling of a little glitter and light in my life. And it’s not like I’m saying I’m done with life there is no solution ofc there is, the thing is I dont know how I’m going to get it done. I thought the best solutions if I dont cut them of is to distance myself but the thing is my parents are literally so sticky I moved out of the family house to go in another city and there is one of them who wants to go live with me and as I presumed it it was the worst period of my life like literally rock bottom That when i was thinking about the fact of being dead it drew a smile on my face seeing how very toxic it was. I went to another city and here we go again one of them comes to live with me and the story repeats itself. Now, looking at my solutions as I want to stay in my original country and build my life here but at the same time i want to distance myself from my family so i’m considering going to a city that is far and I know they wouldnt like living in it because the previous one were reachable for them so if they come it will be just a visit but tbh i’m a little scared it wont work and i’ll be living in that toxic circle again. My second option is to go abroad, sure I will guarantee a safe place where i wont be around them but I’m not motivated to leave my country to one that at the end of the day will always be a stranger one… I’m really lost and overwhelmed by thinking about this every single day. I just wish a peaceful healthy life…